statement

i don't have to explain anything to anyone.

this feelings for u..

sumtimes.
feelings cannot be shown by speech.
it's best expressed in words.writings.

my feelings for u, love.
it is beyond imagination.
far beyond the well-practised speech.
far beyond the greatest poem ever made.

it may be difficult to make a 2 way conversations.
one can always say the wrong things.
the best way is from a one man point-of-view.

curhat is curahan hati

i hate it when exam is lurking around the corner.
it's coming. an imminent event.
thus, the prep must be made.
(psycho kot kalau ada exam selang 2 minggu?)
i just feel that, exams are too frequent.
it makes me bored.fed up.frustrated.
but u cannot argue much because it's medic after all.
haihs. study lah. apa lagi?
modul EMG (endokrin.metabolik and gizi)
blajar pasal all the hormones and what happen if it hyperfunction or hypofunction.
let say, for example, ur cortisol hormone is increasing, u'll get Cushing's Syndrome.
the symptoms are: abdominal striae, obesity, muscle weakness, amenorrhea(absence of menstrual), hirsutism (itu tumbuh misai and bulu berlebihan tue)- women beware!
the aetiology can be tumors, long usage of corticosteroid and others,
hahaha. (terer explain sebab kene study for discussion)

neway, i'm planning to go to Bandung next month.
and probably celebrate new year there. (YEAH!)
i'm hoping that i'd save enough money to enjoy there.
hehehs. i'm planning to go to the place i haven't got the chance to go during my last visit there.
so. am hoping for the BEST.

i heard that futsal tournament will be held by PKPMI.
(my bf got excited about this =) )
and i hope he plays well too.

cd-hunting

a very tiring day. seriously.
i went to PIM (pondok indah mall) in search for a couple of cds
i don't even know why do i have to go there.
maybe that's the place izzy said to search for those cds
what i was searching for -

1.andra&the backbone first album
2.national geographic the da vinci code-the conspiration
3.NASA-leaving the earth
4.animal planet-orang utan island

u see, PIM is bigger than one utama.
there are 2 buildings connected by a skywalk bridge.
it's big with lots of cool shops.
(serious boleh sakit kaki jalan kat situ)
but yup, i did bought like 2 out of 4 cds my sisters were asking for.
later, i'd go to TA(Taman Anggrek) to continue searching for the rest. haihs.

p/s: but we did make a stop for Kenny Rogers and J.co. yummy~

i'll be there 4u

just by sitting at the bench- watching.
i could see that he truly loves this.
the way he kicked and dodged and tackled and scored.
he loves futsal.
the seriousness that he expressed when playing (dalam class pun tak pernah nampak dia se'serious' itu) hahaha.
but i do love to see him play what he loves.
to see how he excel in it.
i could do nothing to stop him. that's why- from this moment on. i
will try my best to support him in this.
i love him.

hahaha.. berjaya juga...

sy cuba utk mengubah template yg seia ada..
al-maklumlah bosan kot dgn template yg sedia ada. don't u agree?
so browse lah google yg enak utk mencari template yg lawa and menarik.
and i found this one page called suckmylolly. google it.
walaupun suckmylolly bunyinya mcm lucah but it's a very informative blog.
hehehes. so dgn bangganya sy mengikut setiap aturan utk ubah template.
and i DID it. setelah berpenat lelah dgn tak retinya,
haihs, sedih betul kalau tak terer bab2 technology nie.
hehehes. but i have done my best.
what d'u think?

in love with

1.mohd. zairi zabri
2.family and beloved friends.
3.makanan enak. and simply mengenyangkan
4.pets: meow and cassy (even tho they're gays)
5.shopping. paper bags. mng.guess.zara.esprit.etc etc.
6.splunky.harry.pixel (pets in pets society) seriously FUN! u shud try it too.
7.getting together.

jgn ingat ia semudah itu

kalau sampai bila2 pun mcm ni.
sampai bila2 pun hal ni takkan selesai.
asyik nak perap dalam hati.
tak ekspresikan keluar.
sampai bila nak mebusuk di dalam?
kasihan hati.
dah banyak menanggung beban perit derita.
kadang2 org sekeliling tak pernah faham.
mungkin mereka tak mungkin akan faham.
mungkin sy yang tidak cuba memahami mereka.
inilah manusia.
kadang2 hidup seolah2 bahagia.
sedangkan hatinya berkecamuk menyimpan segalanya..

if life is easy..
people won't be chasing out for opportunities.
any one they can get.
for better or for worst.
because there are limits when the chance will finally slip away
and you are left with nothing to hold on to.
because if life is easy,
people will eventually commit suicide.
if everyone gets what they want,
there won't be any fun left in the struggle to get what you want.
it will be dull- yes happy at first.
then it will be boring.
then you'll get depressed.
and that's why- admit it as what it is right now.
though it might be sober or frustrating.
it is still full of colours.

so fucked up with lots and lots of exam.

i am totally fucked up with the continuous exams.
endless discussions.
hate it hate it hate it

the start of something new

could it be the start of something new.
or am i just lingering.
waiting. don't wanna move on.
is it just envious or jealousy that's overpowering?
but i'm totally over it.

i've noticed.
that it's not always about u.
things sumtimes just don't turn the way u want it to be.

regret

there are things that i've done.
and regret.