ada ke tiada and tiada ke ada.

there's a lot of differences between those 2 phrases.
and a great impact they may cause.

from nothing to something.
it reflects success, happiness, and life.

from something to nothing.
it reflects sorrow, emptiness and... death.

i just hope that everything will be alright.
everything will be better from here on.

RIP

the rev.
drummer from the band A7X.
he was found dead in his apartment.

and we have lost another great talent.

2009 is simply the death row year. don't u think?

reminisce what's in 2009

2009 is coming to and end..
what actually had happened this year?
too many things have happened and we'll go through it in general.

1. in July, 28, there's an addition to the family member, my dearest nephew. alas, we were confused on what to name him, but we ended up with Rafiq Asyraff Romzi instead. and tomorrow, he'll be 5 months old. omg, adik, aunty cannot see u grow up, but we'll meet this march ok.

2.i've learned that u cannot trust people easily.. when people called and say that u've won such a handful price. please, check again and again. or u'll be fooled but tha kinda scumbags.

3.SOCA. SOCA. SOCA. what a tense and depressing moment. u have to study for it like with all ur heart. dun bother to take sp on that week. use it well to study, because there isn't enuff time.
4.Raya 2009 was one of the happiest moment in my life. all of our little trip to malacca, and karaoke for 2 days straight. owh i have so much fun. yes yes. and i love them sooooo much.
5.my sister's (ijan) engagement day. even tho i'm not there, but i could feel the excitement. after nearly 10 years of being together, finally. just finally they're getting married this may!! but, more on that next year.

6.KKD. (ketrampilan klinik dasar). woot woot. at first, i was excited about wearing white coat. and don't have to go for classes at 6th or 4th floor anymore. but My God, it's not as easy as i thought it will be. or as relax. no no no! it's totally depressing and u need to like, study every friggin' day (except holiday). hehes. but nonetheless, i only got few cycles to go thru before my clinical posting. =)


7.my birthday. hehes. hurm, what do we have here? owh z's and mine were celebrated on the same day. along with with my best friends. i love u guys so much. muah muah.



8.atlantis. hehes. his one is very very momentary. why? because this was where i learned to swim. owh yeah baby. suck that. but nvm, i still need A LOT of practices. hehes.

9.Bali. highlights of the year. yes. after my PK exam, i went straight to Bali, alone. to meet ijan and izzy there. and i had an enjoyable vacation there. it was serenade, beautiful, joyous and wth, i'll be planning to go there again next year.

10.Ijan's first visit to jakarta. i was sooooo excited 'bout this.
and we went to taman safari, again! owh that goes to me. but i had so much fun.
it's because the first time i went there, it was raining cats and dogs, thus, there were few places that i haven't gone to yet. so asta la vista. i've went thru mostly everywhere in taman safari. =)


11.back in midyear, it was nisa's trip to jakarta with her family. and i had so much fun with her too. we went to bandung and mind u, it's pretty tiring. but hey, it's fun. real fun!


12.13/10/2009. my 2nd anniversary with Z. how i love him so much. more to come baby..


okay, that's pretty much everything that happened in 2009.
there are more. but let's just end it here.
so i'll be planning on what to do in 2010. what will happen.
i bet next year is going to be just as awesome as this year. or even better!!
with the wedding, graduation, clinical posting, home... yeahhh.. i'm getting all hyped-up!

is this for real?

i guess as time moves on..
hatred is already gone.
and i sumhow dun mind that it's gone. it's for the best.

we have lives to lead,
and being sarcastic all the time can be such a pain the ass. hahaha..

and i think it's for the best.

to all my dearest friends who celebrates it, happy holiday!
and may u enjoy this holiday to the fullest.
and we still have 6 days before 2009 ends.
come, let's make new year resolutions.
i'm still making mine.

enjoy the holiday,
when the class starts.
owh, i shudder to think 'bout that.
but i do have eng assignments that i have to finish up.
psychiatry cycle.... owh-oh. =(

till then, enjoy this. hard to say by the used.

.. it's xmas eve ..

and i dun know what to say.
but it's holiday.
and i'm watching the tv for their crappy shows.
but as long as it's entertaining. i dun mind..

neway, here are some pics from my sis' trip to jakarta. =)

freedom is mystery

u are free to do whatever u like,
and freedom's a mystery..

and that's what i think drive people sumtimes, to the edge.

but, anyway, as i promised u wayyy earlier,
these are pictures from Bali,
enjoy.. for more, look into my FB.

raining cats and dogs.

what was i thinking?
making an approach like that?
they wudn't mind.. or care.
but i do care.
becuase i dun wanna live my life hating,
it's like poison.

and sooner or later, u gotta let go.
because when u're alone, u'll sure of what u wanna hold onto.
and it's not gonna be bitter memories, or feelings.

and i hope everything'g gonna be just fine.
people change.

it never is enough

after a long long tiring cycles.
right now, it's holiday.
i can't believe that i only start KKD last october
and 22 months. 2 freaking months! they feel like 2 years.
TRUST ME.

too many things had happened.
too many input in my brain.
too many exams.
too many palpitations.
and thank god, it's a HUGE relief that it's holiday.

but i can't be let off easily.
we still have to do 2 english assignments.
OMG, such a fun-breaker.

so it's already day 3 of holiday.
and yeah, i'm chillin'
why don't u?

.. satisfied ..

back then, when i was torn into pieces,
i always asked where's justice?
why am i the one who's always on the losing side?

but i dunno, after a while, it all healed up.
time does change everything..

when hatred is gone..
and u forget..
that's when u are fully satisfied.

holiday.

yes, i know. been away for a while.

but baby, i'm back!
and right now, i'm on holidays.
yeah, not like my usual short weekends.

it's a genuine holiday.
c'mon, i deserve it right?
a girl needs her break right?
hehehes.

.. start somewhere new ..

sometimes..
the place where u think u'll fit in.
it's not actually the place fits for u.

sometimes u just need to go someplace new.
other place.
maybe farther..
in order to see.
in order to experience.

some people might find their success somewhere else.
they just have to have the strength to get out of the circle.

but most of us just too scared to step out of our little world.
scared that we might die outside of our own protected world.
or would we?

.. suck out the fun ..

waiting for everything to come to an end..
i guess, just one day, maybe later on.
i wud appreciate the present i'm in right now.

well, maybe tomorrow will be better. it has to.
i've worked so hard to come this far..
and i sure don't wanna give up just yet.

.. not important enough ..

u're buzzing around like pathetic bee.
but i know better to ignore.

i have so many things going on around me.
and i'm breathless.
got to focus on that.