sweet escape...

let's pack our bag..
and make it for our sweet escape.
just u and me.

malas. benci.

bodo ah.
scholar tak masuk lg.
benci!
apa MARA ingat nak biar students dia mati reput?

wisata di MONAS

hahaha... cuti dah 3hari. baru 3 hari tapi rasa mcm dah berjuta2 tahun kot. hehehes. maybe bcz selama nie hidup macam sgt pack. what with the classes, discussions, seminar, and too-frequent exams. hehes. so bile dah dapat well earned holidays serious terbiar kebosanan. hahaha. so this morning, we decided to have our own lottle trip to MONAS. let me tell u a bit about it:

Monas atau Monumen Nasional merupakan icon kota Jakarta. Terletak di pusat kota Jakarta, menjadi tempat wisata dan pusat pendidikan yang menarik bagi warga Jakarta dan sekitarnya. Monas didirikan pada tahun 1959 dan diresmikan dua tahun kemudian pada tahun 1961. Monas selalu ramai dikunjungi wisatawan untuk melihat keindahan kota Jakarta dari puncak Monas, menambah wawasan sejarah Indonesia di ruang diorama ataupun menikmati segarnya hutan kota seluas kira-kira 80 hektar di tengah kota Jakarta.

Setiap hari libur, Monas selalu dikunjungi banyak wisatawan. Di sini Anda bisa menikmati banyak jenis wisata dan bahan pendidikan. Anda bisa menaiki monumen yang menjulang tinggi hingga ke puncak Monas. Anda juga dapat berolahraga bersama teman dan keluarga. Anda juga bisa menikmati taman yang indah dengan berbagai pepohonan yang rimbun dan asri. Atau Anda bisa menikmati hiburan air mancur yang menarik.

ok, that's enuff of the history that i copied from one of the website. for more info:

visit: http://kumpulan.info/wisata/tempat-wisata/53-tempat-wisata/102-monas-monumen-nasional-jakarta.html

i'm uploading some of the pictures taken while we were there.

at the main entrance.

MONAS upclose.

one of the 3D pictures in the museum. there's more.

kat puncak MONAS, boleh lah tgk pemandangan 1 jakarta. or almost 1 jakarta.

ni kat tingkat 2: lingkaran cawan. boleh lah tgk scenery yg lawa. hehes

okay, that's it for now.. hehees. tell me what u think?

NOKIA N85. bahagia kot kalau dapat.. haha

PRESENTING:

NOKIA N85...
OMG. bahagia kot kalau dapat..
hehehes. ok, it's maybe is not as good as N96 that i previously wanted.
but hey, it has Ngage mode.
eventho dah ada PSP but still, the features in this phone is still mouthwatering.
hehes. the prices wud be aroud 6juta rp. approximately 2,500 in RM.
hurm. berjuta2 tahun lg lah b4 actually dapat.
haihs. naseb now N73 pun ok lagi. takder niat nak jual.
but handphone ni serious cool people.
don't u agree???

heaven nye cuti

secara rasminya, my holiday begin.
hehehes. walaupun mcm kene faringit, febris, lethargy sket. but LANTAK.
happy jugak sbb cuti ah start. walaupun mcm 2 weeks je pun.
still cuti jugak dari tak cuti lgsung.
haihs... penat lah belajar...
modul HOM nie handout pun tak sentuh at all,
tgk pun tidak lg.
rasanya org yg pinjam pg fotokopi lg banyak tgk handout dr saya..
hahaha.

result GER dah keluar...
luckily lah lulus dgn ok nye.
hurm...
however, i made one silly mistake..
huhu
takpelah...
ok kot nanti.hehes.

cuti nie plan nak pg Bandung..
tak sabar pun ada.
now nak siap nak keluar.
maybe pg Grand Indonesia.. tak tau nak watpe.
tapi nak keluar.
cz rasa seminggu dah ada plan nak keluar but tak pernah laksanakan.. huhu.
so bow is the time. yay!!!

wtf

benci ah kau internet.
kenapa ntah nak buat hal?
tetiber boleh dsconnect suka-suki je??
i mean ok, kata lah tgh download cerita ke apa ke
and suddenly dc, rasa nak lempang kot sape2 yg dalam radius berdekatan?
maaf sgt2 pada sesiapa yg terkena tempias...
huhuu.. sgt tak bermaksud nak melenting.
maybe diparahi oleh perut yg lapar kot.
and bila turun bawah nak makan maggi..
boleh pulak pagar dah kunci.
kenapa kene quarantin nie?
mcm berpenyakit pulak.
lapar je pun. and nak pg makan je pun.
bukan nak pg berfoya-foya kat mana2.
haihs. apa lah naseb.
pening. lapar. penat. ngantuk yg bila dah baring boleh tak ngantuk.
apa ntah masalah.
bye.

leave out all the rest

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

*the end*

and that's linkin park-leave out all the rest

i've always love that song. apart from other songs that's also GREAT.
this song however, the lyrics is u know- soothing.
especially this part

"When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest"

it's like, make the most of what u have today to be remembered tomorrow.
and what u leave behind matters.
how u affect other people matters.

futsal. =)

happiness. contentment. jubilant.

without u

i could not imagine my life without u anymore.
what more, the thoughts of losing u shuddered me.
i don't ever wanna be nowhere where u don't exist.
ur existence is what define me. complete me.
it's like completing the last puzzle.
u're like the answer to my questions. my quests. my life.
i could not do another day without u.

hahahaha... gila tak de keje

lost

it is like...
being cut off of all senses..
like you're walking blindfolded in the most complex maze ever created.
and you wonder and ur heartbeat can't get into normal pace.
the constant palpitation almost driving u insane.
except that sanity no longer matter right then and there.
and suddenly-
u were left alone in the middle of nowhere.
what more that it demand from u?
frustration, sadness, LOST.

words sometime can be resentful
what more if being said by the one u loved..
it hurts twice than when other people say it.
and i am in no condition to absorb that properly.

the saga continues

it's gonna be the highlight of the day-
celebrating mat rock and nurul's birthday!
it's been awhile.
will upload photo for u to see later.

now tgh kemaruk membaca buku twilight,
intend utk habeskan the saga in less than a month time.
ahaha. kalau beli buku boleh lah kot. but now terkedek2 menggerakkan jari
sbb download twilight saga in PDF format.
ngahahahaha. pemalas kot?
but who cares.
minat punya pasal. lantak!
hahaha

BEST GILER CTER TWILIGHT (both movie and the book) TAK TIPU!

hehe

exam dah habes.
utk sekarang je lah.
minggu depan ada lagi.
kenapa rasa gatal tangan?
gatal tgn nak- SHOPPING.

p/s: ney jom!

statement

i don't have to explain anything to anyone.

this feelings for u..

sumtimes.
feelings cannot be shown by speech.
it's best expressed in words.writings.

my feelings for u, love.
it is beyond imagination.
far beyond the well-practised speech.
far beyond the greatest poem ever made.

it may be difficult to make a 2 way conversations.
one can always say the wrong things.
the best way is from a one man point-of-view.

curhat is curahan hati

i hate it when exam is lurking around the corner.
it's coming. an imminent event.
thus, the prep must be made.
(psycho kot kalau ada exam selang 2 minggu?)
i just feel that, exams are too frequent.
it makes me bored.fed up.frustrated.
but u cannot argue much because it's medic after all.
haihs. study lah. apa lagi?
modul EMG (endokrin.metabolik and gizi)
blajar pasal all the hormones and what happen if it hyperfunction or hypofunction.
let say, for example, ur cortisol hormone is increasing, u'll get Cushing's Syndrome.
the symptoms are: abdominal striae, obesity, muscle weakness, amenorrhea(absence of menstrual), hirsutism (itu tumbuh misai and bulu berlebihan tue)- women beware!
the aetiology can be tumors, long usage of corticosteroid and others,
hahaha. (terer explain sebab kene study for discussion)

neway, i'm planning to go to Bandung next month.
and probably celebrate new year there. (YEAH!)
i'm hoping that i'd save enough money to enjoy there.
hehehs. i'm planning to go to the place i haven't got the chance to go during my last visit there.
so. am hoping for the BEST.

i heard that futsal tournament will be held by PKPMI.
(my bf got excited about this =) )
and i hope he plays well too.

cd-hunting

a very tiring day. seriously.
i went to PIM (pondok indah mall) in search for a couple of cds
i don't even know why do i have to go there.
maybe that's the place izzy said to search for those cds
what i was searching for -

1.andra&the backbone first album
2.national geographic the da vinci code-the conspiration
3.NASA-leaving the earth
4.animal planet-orang utan island

u see, PIM is bigger than one utama.
there are 2 buildings connected by a skywalk bridge.
it's big with lots of cool shops.
(serious boleh sakit kaki jalan kat situ)
but yup, i did bought like 2 out of 4 cds my sisters were asking for.
later, i'd go to TA(Taman Anggrek) to continue searching for the rest. haihs.

p/s: but we did make a stop for Kenny Rogers and J.co. yummy~

i'll be there 4u

just by sitting at the bench- watching.
i could see that he truly loves this.
the way he kicked and dodged and tackled and scored.
he loves futsal.
the seriousness that he expressed when playing (dalam class pun tak pernah nampak dia se'serious' itu) hahaha.
but i do love to see him play what he loves.
to see how he excel in it.
i could do nothing to stop him. that's why- from this moment on. i
will try my best to support him in this.
i love him.

hahaha.. berjaya juga...

sy cuba utk mengubah template yg seia ada..
al-maklumlah bosan kot dgn template yg sedia ada. don't u agree?
so browse lah google yg enak utk mencari template yg lawa and menarik.
and i found this one page called suckmylolly. google it.
walaupun suckmylolly bunyinya mcm lucah but it's a very informative blog.
hehehes. so dgn bangganya sy mengikut setiap aturan utk ubah template.
and i DID it. setelah berpenat lelah dgn tak retinya,
haihs, sedih betul kalau tak terer bab2 technology nie.
hehehes. but i have done my best.
what d'u think?

in love with

1.mohd. zairi zabri
2.family and beloved friends.
3.makanan enak. and simply mengenyangkan
4.pets: meow and cassy (even tho they're gays)
5.shopping. paper bags. mng.guess.zara.esprit.etc etc.
6.splunky.harry.pixel (pets in pets society) seriously FUN! u shud try it too.
7.getting together.

jgn ingat ia semudah itu

kalau sampai bila2 pun mcm ni.
sampai bila2 pun hal ni takkan selesai.
asyik nak perap dalam hati.
tak ekspresikan keluar.
sampai bila nak mebusuk di dalam?
kasihan hati.
dah banyak menanggung beban perit derita.
kadang2 org sekeliling tak pernah faham.
mungkin mereka tak mungkin akan faham.
mungkin sy yang tidak cuba memahami mereka.
inilah manusia.
kadang2 hidup seolah2 bahagia.
sedangkan hatinya berkecamuk menyimpan segalanya..

if life is easy..
people won't be chasing out for opportunities.
any one they can get.
for better or for worst.
because there are limits when the chance will finally slip away
and you are left with nothing to hold on to.
because if life is easy,
people will eventually commit suicide.
if everyone gets what they want,
there won't be any fun left in the struggle to get what you want.
it will be dull- yes happy at first.
then it will be boring.
then you'll get depressed.
and that's why- admit it as what it is right now.
though it might be sober or frustrating.
it is still full of colours.

so fucked up with lots and lots of exam.

i am totally fucked up with the continuous exams.
endless discussions.
hate it hate it hate it

the start of something new

could it be the start of something new.
or am i just lingering.
waiting. don't wanna move on.
is it just envious or jealousy that's overpowering?
but i'm totally over it.

i've noticed.
that it's not always about u.
things sumtimes just don't turn the way u want it to be.

regret

there are things that i've done.
and regret.

you

in this.
it is all about YOU.
where it's only YOU that matters.
only what YOU think is precise.
only what YOU predict is true.
only what YOU feel is the utmost feeling.

what YOU see is what the world should see.
and that YOUr perspectives should be listened.

-but.
if it's in real life, where do YOU stand?
what about YOU that matters?
are YOU too démodé?

the ultimate.
of everything.

bila berkata2

walaupun tak pernah terlintas apa nak cakap.
tapi rasa mcm ada sesuatu yg tersimpan dlm hati.
menunggu masa utk diluahkan.
ataupun mungkin akan berterusan terkunci dlm hati.
tiada siapa yg tau.

sy mmg banyak merepek.
selalu pun cakap benda yg kadang2 menconfusekan diri sendiri.
tapi kan. tu mmg lumrah.
dah jadi kepribadian.
smoga tak jadi gguan kepribadian sudah.

penat tunggu si dia tak pulang2 dari game futsal kat kuningan.
kalau ikutkan hati mmg rasa menyesal tak ikut je tadi.
tapi sebenarnye dah janji kawan nak pg TA makan Jco yg enak.
tapi sebab hujan.
impian tue tinggal impian.
mungkin besok after diskusi akan shoot jugak pg TA menjilat oreology yg enak.
hahaha.

skrg musim hujan.
dulu musim panas.
nak kata banyak season kat jakarta nie tak lah.
more like extreme wheather je memanjang..
dulu panas macam gurun sahara...
bila dah hujan... tak berenti2 pulak.
jgn banjir mcm dulu sudah. tak larat nak dievakuasi lagi.

hati kacau. fikiran runsing.
apasal org yg dianggap kawan yg memahami dah berubah?
bosan hidup mcm nie.
pnh dgr ada org bgtau..
"don't get emotionally attached to anybody"
walaupun nak sangkal kata2 tue.
tapi deep down inside ada jugak benarnya.
but still rasa tak boleh aply on every condition.

exam tak jadi tukar.
buat penat je ingat boleh lepak2 sbb exam postpone.
tapi tak pun.
saje je buat gimik.

kenapa sy berbahasa malaysia(walaupun dah tak tau ada cmpur2 bahsa indo)
sebab malas nak fikir grammar yg betul.
english sy dah buruk.teruk.rusted.
kalau sy yg dulu dgr sy yg skrg cakap.
mesti gelak besar sambil berkata.
"loser".
enak je hati bilang begitu.
tapi itu adalah hakikat..

too long

boring.
been feeling like i've stayed in jakarta for too long.
even tho last month i just went back to Malaysia.
what does that proves?
jakarta = boredom?
maybe.. just maybe if there's no class and exam.
and instead, we fill it with berjalan. bershopping. bergembira.
life would be much happier.
don't u think so?

on the other hand, cracked heels is horrifying
it's one of the early sign of aging.progressive deteriorating destructive process.
no wonder manusia try their best to at least postponing the aging process.
or at least make it slower at any rate.
i agree.

memikirkan dalam family ada history diabetic and hypertension.
ada juga autoimmune..
diri jadi takut.
fikiran "will i have one of those" sgt bermain di kepala otak.

memikirkan parents yang makin lanjut usia.
and abah yg memang ada diabetes mellitus type 2 plus complications.
and kak yg ada SLE.
hati takut akan kehilangan.
hopefully it won't happen now..
or in the mean time.
or ever.

mengantuk hari2 adakah sebab kelas bosan. modul bosan?
pastinya belajar ttg org tua amat memboringkan
memikirkan suatu hari nanti akan jadi begitu juga.

suatu masa nanti, mungkin akan ada hipertensi.
lebih teruk lagi disertai dgn diabetes.
yang mungkin datang tanpa sedar.
sedar2 dah ada komplikasi.
sakit jantung.
nefropati.
neuropati.
masa depan yang gelap.
ditambah dgn possibility yang menakutkan.
sakit itu menakutkan.
mati adalah suatu yang pasti.

there he was.

Dr Tony Setiabudi SpKJ, PhD
i thought he was already fired.
but there he was, lame and suck as usual..
teaching gerontology.
i do think he had grandiose delusions.
the way he bragged about himself- one can never be too full of himself.

Dr Tony S. patut dipecat.
that's it.

next item..

you can call me "dewi gadget"
this is why..

open house at pondok indah

exam had just finished this morning..
it was difficult.. ( i can't do it.. *sigh*)
huhu... but let's forget about that for now..
i still have another exam to think about next week..
but, in the mean time..
i do have a right to relax for a while right?
hehehes.
today, my friends and i were invited to an open house at pondok indah
made by aunty khalidah- the woman we met during the dinner at shahid jaya hotel? (betul ke?)
hehehes. anyway, we went there at 1 and ATE A LOT!
from nasi beriyani, to spagetti, pudding, kuih raya and fruits.
we were even asked to go for karaoke. hahaha..
and the best thing was- we got DUIT RAYA.
it was simply marvelous.
i love it!

life is unexpected..

good things does happen when u least expecting it..
so does the bad.

i'm missing you...

been in a crowd.
especially the one that you love..
the one that you care about..
is and absolute contentment.
but once the crowd is gone..
slowly, one by one left..
you'll feel a great lost.
such in despair.
and it's sad to feel that.
make a world with no parting away.
and that you'll be together
happily ever after..

my days of raya

selamat hari raya

it's the last day of fasting..
now ramadhan will end. and syawal will come..
like i told you earlier, this is the first raya i'll be celebrating at home.
my last 2 years were spent in Jakarta,
it was sooo sad not having family by your side during raya.














this is my first raya in jakarta,
i was on standing at the front row on the right.
this photo was sent to one of the local newspaper.
but still, celebrating raya at other places that wasn't called home was still devastating.














this is my second year of raya,
still not at home...
*sigh*. but this year,
i found somebody new.
and that's the gift behind the misery of not going home.
i met the love of my life...

and it's already a year..
and it's already Raya..
so i'm taking this chance to wish

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.
i'm home this year and i couldn't be happier for that

shadows..

i..
i wanna see what he saw..
touch what he touched..
feel what he felt..
think what he thought..
just being in his footsteps..
makes me feel like i know him..
understand him..
but i will always be his shadow..
could there be a chance that i can step next to him?

raya prep..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

i'm not that enthusiastic making raya prep.
just a nice and simple one would do...
this is already the 2nd day of my holiday.
and i'm totally am bored.
i don't know.
it's pretty tiring fasting here than in jakarta,
i don't know what the "it" factor that make it like that.
i already have my "baju raya", bought by izzy.
and another 2 baju raya bought by my mum.

and i'm still am bored..
might be because of less communication with my friends.
when u just onlne everyday and see nobody else is only on YM..
why?? too busy making raya prep??? (except for ekey, who's always online)
hahaha... (ekey, no offense.. tak bermaksud apa2)

my exam is on 11th i think.
i haven't studied anything yet.
hahaha.. (takutnyeerr)

i'm not going back for raya,
due to certain events,
but anyway, hey, it's raya.
and this is my first raya in malaysia after i went to jakarta.
so.. better be GRATEFUL!!

and i...
i don't know.. even in the sea of people..
i still feel lonely.. pretty ironic huh?
so.. this is it..
later

i'm back at HOME

a place like no other...
home.

can't wait

in less than 24 hours.
i'll be home.
eating pure mamak roti canai with kuah dal.
and 'lepaking' at kopitiam bangi till morning.

soulnation festival!

i want to go to soulnation festival!
like REALLY2 want to go.
will buy ticket asap.
anybody interested?? huhu

first day of class

as u see, today is my first day of class
i can't sleep last night. i don't know why.
but please note that it has nothing to do with excitement for classes (duh)
hehes. ME (mental emosional) is a total disappointment.
class was packed with students.
and it was boring. seriously.
and i see the schedule that we will be having discussion like everyday after this..
ahhhhh. and that's so frustrating.
lucky the exam is on friday after holiday.
i hope things will be better. i hope it will.
please.

i'm gonna start writing and yet i'm stil not sure what am i gonna talk about.
to start, i have some serious problem of spending money.
i like to shop, i mean, really really like to shop.
hahaha... and yet, i'm still fussing about why MARA couldn't give enough?
i'll try to watch where i'm spending my money on next time. (haha)
this month i've already spent a lot. no, seriously.. A LOT!!!
here are some of the things that i dare to put here...
hahaha.. yg lain taknak letak.. psycho suka membeli belah.





meanwhile, 2nd year of medic had passed.
now i'm a 3rd year student.
and it's official starting tomorrow.
class will be packed with malaysian.
as all of us are put in one class.hahaha
and it will all begin tomorrow, the goods and the bads..
but i'd worry about that later on.
but why do i get bad feelings about this?
am i dreading the worst?
let me be proven wrong.
i'm gonna start with ME (mental emosional)
sumthing like psychiatry stuff to me.
hope i'll come out clean and smooth.

for all i know,
my heart is already in malaysia.
body in one place, minds are elsewhere.
i can't wait fot september 25th to come.
i wanna go home.. finally!!~
but i'm guessing that the exam will be right after hols end.
which mean, that i have to study at home?? (sh*t)

however, going back home means raya is coming..
i wanna eat..
i wanna go out..
i wanna do some family thingy..
i wanna eat.. (again)

gossip girl.

one phrase i remembered from season 2 gg is
"a lifeguard is like Kleenex, it's disposable" *wink*
i just finished downloading everything.
the season of downloading has just begun.

what i do.

gossip girl season 2 and prison break season 4.
downloads are in progress...
hahaha.

right now.

and so begin my short term holiday...

finally, it's over~

i just had my KV exam this morning.
it was tough, no doubt.
but i am glad that it is over.
right now, all i can do is pray and hope that i'll achieve good result.
my MP7 has come out, the result i mean.
and it turns out that i'm doing good. thank god.
many things have happened during my absence in posting..
i'm busy busy busy studying,
and my mood for studying is decreasing slightly day by day.
*sigh*...
i wish i could study harder.
i got my ipod classic 80gb(silver)
it is cool exploring it. yet i am not a master in technology.
so it took me some times to figure out how to use the i tunes correctly,
what more, to actually organize songs and music video...
it really need a lot of patience.
hahaha... but i've already put around 500 songs inside it, 14 music video and 3 movies.
and it's still counting up... (sape suruh dia ada 70gb free space lagi?)
hahaha... and it's already ramadhan, fasting month,
and i am going back to Malaysia bu the end of this month,
my flight on 25th September was rescheduled by Air Asia,
i had to call the center to conformise my flight schedule,
and everything is okay now.
it's already the 3rd day of fasting...
counting the days to go home. =)

a letter to you dear love

the rain is falling heavily,
and i hope you are here with me.
to hold me tight right in your arm,
keep me safe, keep me warm.
distance keeps us apart,
but you and i will never part.
this feeling will always bloom,
for you will cast away the gloom.
and i want to be with you right here,
just stay close, don't disappear.