Miss

Rindu stase anak. Keji x..
Dulu masa still stase anak tak sabar sgt nak habes.
Now rindu pulak babies kat situ. Rinduu..

Now stase IKM, first 2 days boring gila.
Hari nie cuti dapat makan free.
Esok dah start masuk puskesmas.. Hopefully lah menarik.
X dapat membayangkan hidup 8 mggu ke depan.


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اَلْحَمْدُلِلّهِ

Thank god stase stressful nie dah berakhir. Even tho berakhir dgn mixed feelings. Tapi bersyukur gak sbb dah selesai. Even tho tak tau hasil akhir ke arah bonam ke malam.. (⌣́_⌣̀")

hari ni selesai packing barang
Esok pagi nak pindah balik grogol.
Dah xde jaga malam sampai raya. Hehes..

Lepas nie dapat cycle IKM kat jakarta..
Dah tak larat duduk koja sbb duit habes beribann. Stress dia banyak faktor pencetus..

Org berharap hidup should be fullfiling kan? My life.. Don't quite like where I am standing right now.
Tp apa boleh buat, terima je lah.
If God gives u an obstacle, it's only because He knows that u can cope with it..

And I'm homesick..
Nak jumpa semua org..
And nak jumpa baby Iman Hezry.
Cute name..
Iman Hezry b Izwan Effendy. Comell..
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Since whatever..

2 hari lagi exam bangsal..
How? How? Dah cukup ready kah??

Rite now I wanna sleep.
That's all I know for sure..

And I looked so skinny I hate myself.


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Stages of relationship..

Org kata (actually tgk u-tube), rship ada few stages. We go thru each stages and it has its own criteria.. It's more like a phase from hooking up to breaking up.

01. Strangers
Mula2 tak kenal. Like apa yg attract the both of u close to each other. The x factor. Looks? Attitude? Just simply anything??

02. The chase
Dari mula2 usha sampai tackle2. Trial n error phase. Org kata (u tube) masa nie masa yg paling berbunga2. Bila ada 1 new message. Hati melompat2 nak baca sms tue. Yeke? Ahaha.. Skrg zaman ввм sume naik terus takde tunggu 2-3 minit for one new sms.

03. Honeymoon
Bila dah jadi couple. Rasa dunia nie bling2. Full of rainbows. Haha. Mcm teori ted from HIMYM honeymoon phase nie, kita rasa kita lah yg paling hebat and other couple sux. Well, it's gonna last sumhow.

04. Comfortable
Bila dah habis dah phase rollercoaster ride nie. Mulalah kita akan menjadi diri kita sendiri. U-tube cakap phase nie it's either u continue to work on the rship or u just simply start to build a distance with ur partner.

05. Tolerance
Bila dah start ada that invisible distance, mula rasa there's sumthing wrong, but u just don't know what. Most of steady couple ada di phase ini. They foughts, they argue, they make up, and it goes on and on. Tp sbb the trust they have upon each other yg buat diorg still holding on.

06. Downhill
Nie bila the bitter parts are more than the sweet parts. Rough days turns to months or maybe years. Masa nie lah akan pop up question in each of their mind, are they strong enough to either hold on or let it go ie. Breaking up. Masa nie jugak lah, they start to look for a matress to back their fall, maybe cheating with other person, or just simply ignoring the other person or whatever. But it's going down the drain.

07. Breaking up
Mula2 rasa bila break up nie ada 2 outcome. Sama ada u can maintain being just friends or u turns out being each other worst nightmare. Which one is urs?

08. Strangers
Bila dah back to strangers, all u have is just bits of memories. Tak ingat sgt pun. Eventho u'll still remember, but that heart of urs still have the scars from the breaking. U'd never want to feel it ever again.

So what phase are u?

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Exam poliklinik

Taktau lah nak sedih ke x.
But dapat case yg tak master.
Kejang demam.
Or known as febrile seizures.

So al-kisah kan dapat exam ngan dr R.
Dia, hurm, just dun take what he said seriously..
But ada jugak stuff yg dia cakap eventho maybe untuk bercanda je.
Tp.. U know..

Takde lah rasa lega exam dah habis.
Sbb still ada exam lagi mggu depan. Still have to work hard!

Lepas nie cycle IKM. Jakarta.

P/s: gambar gerhana bulan
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I don't know if I will do well tomorrow

Hari nie dapat pasien exam..
Tak expect langsung dapat kejang demam..
Sebab orang lain sume dapat kasus demam, tb, diare, asma etc..
Topik yang agak senang..
Me? Tak berapa nak bernasib baik lah..
To me, kejang is easy.. Not that difficult, tp bila dah kene tanya too deep and berkaitan dgn neurologi.. X master lah sedalam itu..
Hence, the cuak-ness..

So buat status dalam keadaan stress sbb fikir if kene ujian hari nie mmg mati..
Tak tau if kene tanya too deep..
So when dr R datang kat peri..
Me dgn muka dah nak menangis sbb x ready at all..
And he said, ok sambung exam esok..
So mmg janji kat diri sendiri, akan digunakan utk belajar..
Eventho bakal x dapat jawab most of the questions, at least I've learned n tried my best!

Doakan saya ye kawan-kawan..

I so miss my nephew..
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Exam. Never ending exam.

Exam poli start minggu ke 9 hari rabu nie..
And I feel like there's too much to cover.
Tak sempat confirm..
And I'm so scared I'd go blank depan doctor tersebut.
Dgr cerita doc nie antara baik dan killer. Suka-suki dia..
Takut lah..
Tak pernah exam sorg2. At least selalu berdua yg at least u're not the only target..
Akan ada satu periode lucid mcm tue utk buys u time to think. Think. Think.
Nie if u go blank, tak tau.. And the doc will just look at u..
Ahhh scary..
And khamis nie dapat tau dpt cycle mana..
I so wanna go home for raya.. Huhu..
Nak balik raya..
Nak stase lepak sket.. Boleh tak??
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Anhedonic

I have this serious feeling..
The feeling of nothing-ness. Kosong.
Terlalu banyak yg bermain di fikiran.
Until I've gone numb.
And I just put everything ON HOLD.
Not wanting to deal or put it aside..

Siklus kali nie.. Rasa bosan.
Why? Sbb semua takde yg exciting..
Wait, babies.. Tue je yg soothing.
Other than that. Nil..

Doctor tak best sgt.
Perawat tak best sgt.
And I feel irritated more that I should..
Just about everything..
Tak sabar nak habes..

Smoga lepas nie dah x dapat dah siklus kat sini.

Owh btw, kawan seangkatan didx suspek limfoma.
I know it's dangerous..
And I feel sorry for him.
Doctor is the worst patient or so I've been told..

Smoga semuanya berakhir dengan baik. آمينَ
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