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I envy those yg dpt pg TPM nye dinner.
Even worse yg dapat chance to win an iPad that night.
Nvm. Sabar sket je lagi. Duduk karawang for like 3 weeks more then hopefully dpt lah keluar dari sini.
Semua perayaan dah sambut kat sini.
Even anniversary with Z pun kat sini.
Totally bored.
Dah hampir 5 bulan kat sini.
Hopefully cukup lah..
Nak cuti. But ntahlah.
See how things go.
I'd never apply for a holiday unless dpt, akan terima..

Yesterday, waktu ikut operation craniotomy.
Must be bcz tak makan, or bgn tiba2 terkejut, or perut mcm kruk2, and kepala berpinar, saya pitam during operation.
Am angry with muself why can't I be stronger.
Duduk sini for bedah, eventho doc sgt lah baik.
But perawat OK keji taknak bg hecting unless we promised them sumthing in return.
Sedih. Dapat cycle kat sini je. That's why nak try sumwhere else.

Mungkin ada hikmah nye kot.
We'll see..
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I never thought yg keje jadi doctor akan sepenat ini.
I mean, tak sangka langsung sepenat ini.
Working long hours. Kadang2 on weekend, late night, oncall.
Sgt memenatkan.

Tapi kene jadi kuat
Cz nie jalan yg dah dipilih. Huhu..
Surgery cycle dah nak habes.
Tinggal lagi sebulan je.
After that tgk lah dapat cycle apa.
Eventho dah apply forensic UI
If tak dpt and dapat stag pun still akan gembira.
Cz tak sanggup nak duduk kat karawang lagi.
Huhu.
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alhamdulillah

dah nak masuk minggu ke-5 surgery cycle

and dalam masa jadi coass bedah, tak pernah dapat hecting.

and thank god semalam ada 2 patients boleh hecting.

at least doa termakbul untuk tujuan belajar yg lebih baik.

other wise what's the point masuk cycle bedah if tak dapat basic skills dia kan?

and right now doa nak dapat jahit dalam OK pulak.

eventho makcik dan pakcik2 dalam OK tue sume kedekut.

let's find a way.

huhu.

i miss home real bad.

i totally..

can hardly move on.

rasa banyak sgt masalah.

but i have to be strong.

i HAVE to.

new rotation

baru je habes stase interna di karawang.

did i tell you saya dapat dgn dr N Specialist Pulmo?

haihs..

memang bergelumang dgn buku tbc and penyakit paru yg lain lahhh..

however, exam pun dah lepas.

and harap dapat nilai yg bagus...

Z ajak pg amek nilai mggu depan..

now, actually berharap dapat cuti stagnancy..

tapi dapat gak new cycle-surgery pulak tue.

kat karwang lagi..

dah lah dah 4 cycles takde bedah karawang..

so it's difficult lah nak tanya2 the do's and don't.

terpaksa lah tanya senior yg paling last amek dulu..

skrg dalam stase orthopaeds.

hurm hari pertama blur.

hari kedua even more confused.

nasib lah hari nie at least dapat ikut operasi.

walaupun cuma jadi tukang pegang retractor and suction and debb debb..

tapi dapat gak first class standing seat untuk tgk live amputation of lower limb.

free of charge.

i miss home. but..

kena sambung lagi stase..

huhuu.. sedih but wth.

teruskan je lah..

berharap badan terus-menerus sehat.

kuat mental dan fisikal.

and idk.. hope i'll do just fine.

sry lambat and dah lama tak update.

cz i dunno what to write anymore.

it's just work.eat.sleep.oncall.

i never seem to enjoy life anymore. =(

week 9

week 9.

rasa nak cepat2 habis interna kat sini..

but then again..

tak habis study lagi.. omg!!

takut tapi malas.

maybe sbb tgk konsulen lepak, eh konon nak lepak jugakkk lah.

hadoiii..