I don't know if I will do well tomorrow

Hari nie dapat pasien exam..
Tak expect langsung dapat kejang demam..
Sebab orang lain sume dapat kasus demam, tb, diare, asma etc..
Topik yang agak senang..
Me? Tak berapa nak bernasib baik lah..
To me, kejang is easy.. Not that difficult, tp bila dah kene tanya too deep and berkaitan dgn neurologi.. X master lah sedalam itu..
Hence, the cuak-ness..

So buat status dalam keadaan stress sbb fikir if kene ujian hari nie mmg mati..
Tak tau if kene tanya too deep..
So when dr R datang kat peri..
Me dgn muka dah nak menangis sbb x ready at all..
And he said, ok sambung exam esok..
So mmg janji kat diri sendiri, akan digunakan utk belajar..
Eventho bakal x dapat jawab most of the questions, at least I've learned n tried my best!

Doakan saya ye kawan-kawan..

I so miss my nephew..
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Exam. Never ending exam.

Exam poli start minggu ke 9 hari rabu nie..
And I feel like there's too much to cover.
Tak sempat confirm..
And I'm so scared I'd go blank depan doctor tersebut.
Dgr cerita doc nie antara baik dan killer. Suka-suki dia..
Takut lah..
Tak pernah exam sorg2. At least selalu berdua yg at least u're not the only target..
Akan ada satu periode lucid mcm tue utk buys u time to think. Think. Think.
Nie if u go blank, tak tau.. And the doc will just look at u..
Ahhh scary..
And khamis nie dapat tau dpt cycle mana..
I so wanna go home for raya.. Huhu..
Nak balik raya..
Nak stase lepak sket.. Boleh tak??
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Anhedonic

I have this serious feeling..
The feeling of nothing-ness. Kosong.
Terlalu banyak yg bermain di fikiran.
Until I've gone numb.
And I just put everything ON HOLD.
Not wanting to deal or put it aside..

Siklus kali nie.. Rasa bosan.
Why? Sbb semua takde yg exciting..
Wait, babies.. Tue je yg soothing.
Other than that. Nil..

Doctor tak best sgt.
Perawat tak best sgt.
And I feel irritated more that I should..
Just about everything..
Tak sabar nak habes..

Smoga lepas nie dah x dapat dah siklus kat sini.

Owh btw, kawan seangkatan didx suspek limfoma.
I know it's dangerous..
And I feel sorry for him.
Doctor is the worst patient or so I've been told..

Smoga semuanya berakhir dengan baik. آمينَ
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paeds Koja

paeds.. taktau nak cakap apa

rasa mcm di awang-awangan..

and rasa mcm dalam dunia sendiri with the kids.

funny about kids.. they can be both annoying and enjoying..

they have their charms, u see. when they smile.

full of innocence and purity..

i love kids..

sangat...

berjaya.

alhamdullilah.
lulus dengan cemerlang stase Forensik..
walaupun rasa forensik agak bosan..
tapi in the end it is all worth it..

dan pg jumpa dentist untuk tampal gigi.
rasanya kene control lagi hari jumaat but tgk lah if sempat pg. malas tak pg..

and esok dah nak pg Karawang.
dgn tujuan nak pg amek nilai interna n bedah..

akhirnya surat claim coass dah hantar.
just harap dia proses cepat and before jumaat dah dapat.
cz i need to buy this. and fast!~

stase paling scary kot.

huhu.. i never really like kids.
i mean in general they're cute.
but maybe when they're sick, and whining and crying.
i can never handle them.
plus maybe trauma tgk anak k-town suffers so rasa semua stase anak pun akan mcm tue.

takut.
takut..

tp kene jugak tabahkan hati.
what to do?
dah dapat stase anak kat RSUD Koja.
just jalani je lah the next 10 weeks.
dah lah dpt dgn sorg yg memang well-known to be patologis.
haihs.

ok. be positive!~

antique

call me old fashion.
but u see. people these days talks with nauseating language.

when i was still a 12-16 year-old girl.
i don't even know the word like: (let me list them down)
aq
lettew
kewr
cane
cyg
gax taw
etc.

they all sound so absurd. pathetic.
like why do u have to talk like a small child when you're already entering adolescent phase.
true, u say, "it's just normal-in-trend-everyday-language"
but then again, it sounded so wrong.
i'm nauseated.

the way i look at it. it looks like they're a bunch of uneducated people.

geez, i do sound old.