it's not that you would understand..

i sometimes feel that i live in my own brand of world.
in the sea of people, i still find it difficult to fit in.
haha. this has nothing to do with what i'm going through right now.
it just occurs sometimes and i wonder..
ever felt that way before?

fitting in and adapting to the people around you.
yes, it's still a mystery how people bond with each other.
a clique maybe, still has the one who shines the most and one who'll look like a side-kick
to co-exist with one another..
what's the secret.
toleration?
understanding?
loyalty?
what's the best recipe?

my definition of how i live my life
might seems different or unique.
but i'm happy.
and i'm happy with the people around me.
the girls... *hearts*
loved one.. *heart ~infinity~*
family.. *lovely*
but still..
there are prices to pay.

bored.

i find it difficult to put a dot in every single letter for my blog title.
it makes it more difficult to serach for it later on. haha.

hurm, today is already sunday.
and allllll i did was watching online movie.
and keeps on watching..
last night from slumdog millionaire to hannah montana the movie.
proceeding to fast and furious later on.

i don't watch movie in cinema much right now.
partly because i'm too lazy to go to cinema to watch it.
or maybe because i'm quite busy with my exams that i seldom go to cinema.
or maybe because i'm trying to boycott the cinema. (it seems less likely)

the point is, i can't find my time to start studying.
or maybe because i don't know what and where to start.
because after the the mid module exam,
the materials for forensic are all about law.
indonesian law.
it's plain boring. huh.

and the most important thing is,
my exam is due this wednesday.
yes. that THE most important thing.
gosh..............
how to start??
when to start??
what to read??

i might as well just go through the past year question..
just like what i did during the mid module exam. =)

p/s: tomorrow MUST go to class.
definitely. =)

.. *shhhh*

sometimes..
all it takes is silence
to clear things up..

silence.
to let us think for a second.

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just finish watching slumdog millionaire.
it's a GREAT movie. seriously.
i kinda watch it quite late.
haha. too late maybe.
because all my indonesian classmates have already watched it.
they told me it's great.
but i can't seem to find the right time to watch it.
until today.

it's SAD, infuriating..
and magical- how life can turn upside down in a go.
would mine be the same?
*crossing fingers*

exam's lurking. are u ready?

i have another exam next week on wednesday.
last exam for forensic module.

materials for exam: sky up high.
preparation: procrastination.

hell yeah baby, i'm not done.
d'u feel me?

this emptiness inside of me

this hole in my heart.
where is the missing puzzle?
maybe i'm still searching.
or i've looked at it but haven't actually seen it.
i don't know.
why don't u tell me.

clueless

i'm not really sure what might cause this.
but the fact that i've never felt this empty scares me.

there are tons of things that might cause this.
but i'm not sure which one.

i'm bored.
i'm lazy.
i'm impossible.
and i'm clueless.

misinterpretation

have you ever said things that you don't really mean?
worst- u said words that people misinterpret later then.

don't get me wrong.
i meant no harm.
what more, to hurt one's feeling.

may peace be upon all of u..