memikirkan dalam family ada history diabetic and hypertension.
ada juga autoimmune..
diri jadi takut.
fikiran "will i have one of those" sgt bermain di kepala otak.

memikirkan parents yang makin lanjut usia.
and abah yg memang ada diabetes mellitus type 2 plus complications.
and kak yg ada SLE.
hati takut akan kehilangan.
hopefully it won't happen now..
or in the mean time.
or ever.