make it happen.

i always wanna be the girl who can speak her mind.
instead, i do speak my mind. in my own very mind.
pathetic. that i don't actually have the guts nor the courage to do so.
because i'm scared of what i'll say might hurt others.
so i keep it all to myself.

i do hope that as time goes on,
i will be braver.
instead of keeping it all to myself.
i might actually blurted it out. to the right person.
but maybe... just maybe that time might come in 10 years or so.

right now all i wanted is to have a happy life.
with Z, friends and family.
i love them all to pieces.
and i do hope they're feeling just the same about me..
awwwwwww....

i have a lot of unfulfilled wishes.
the never-ending lists of what i want to do.
i think too much.
if only i can just do, do, do and think later.
but yes. i have to think about the consequences.
if it is a child, that the child is permitted to act without thinking.
and leave the consequences for the adults to handle.
but i'm no longer a child.
i have to bear the consequences of my own personal acts.
i'm forced to grow up and take responsible.
that's sad. isn't it. but that's life.

what i'll do at this very moment.
make it happen.
everything i've wished for.
make it happen. one by one.
in a safe way. of course. =D

p/s: chelsea won over everton 2-0 and grab the FA cup. yay!!~